oh well...

True love is wisdom that does not retaliate how ever evil one can be, but forgives.

Receive in a way of reciprocating, with faith you will be given in return.

The life beneath the life of yours that does not speak, speaks not to you, silenced amongst others, yet only you noticed it, Juliet, you've learned my language.

You gave life from beneath the life of me, love that no one sees, thank you, Juliet.

Now, it is your decision to choose to love me, Juliet. But I do not regret.

If our goals for tomorrow wander off too, where is the courage to face our tomorrow?

Courage for life and death, accepting the things we cannot change, and making the brave decisions to change the things we can.

You, Juliet, are better than anyone to understand me. Your understanding is incomparable than anyone else can know.

In order to keep my incomparable understanding pure, I've decided to care for you.

Juliet, do not forget, we were in love, we are in love, we will always be in love.

If you love me, I love you more. You put a debt in my heart that I cannot pay, you leave a feeling that only the depth and the breadth and the height of my soul can reach.(inspired from Elizabeth Barrett Browning's Sonnet)

NewT

"The past is a disposal of whatever that is old, the present is a creation of what is bound to happen, the future is a storage of our dreams."

Today..

"Colours of a rainbow are indeed dazzled in the eyes of judgements, but scorching flames of a sun are indeed blazed into the hearts of perceptions."

"Sincere, devoted, kind run in his demeanor, he, whose demeanor reflects all three will shine the darkness that conquers others' life."

"Intuitive, compassionate, kind, devoted, reflected are them in her demeanor."

"I may not be a statistician, but for sure I know that the statistics of me trying to prove my love is beyond count."

"Even if I may be a physician, I am never able to measure the strength of my love for you."

"No, no! How powerful as a dictator I am doesn't make me stronger than being able to love you. My love is always stronger."

"The days that are without you, are lonely and saddening."

"If you have just thought of stopping my love for you, your efforts are futile."

"Don't get excited, my praise doesn't mean anything."

"If I ever am able to measure love, I am not made for loving others."

"If you are able to measure my love for you, I have not loved you enough."

"I am a mathematician, and my best equation is, one plus one makes us."
"I am a mathematician, and my best equation is, me and you makes one."

"There is a difference between like and love? In a strange way I like you -- I love you."

"It does not make me better as a person without loving you."

"If I do not love you, I am not a good person. If you do not love me, I am the bad person."

"No matter how much stronger I am, my love is always stronger."

"The sun shines fairer in your proximity."

"Other than next to you, is dark."

"I want to be next to you, elsewhere is too dark for me."

"Do you want to know how far my love can reach? Let me tell you, it is as far as infinity."

"If you want to know the length of my love, you need to first know the length of an abyss."

"Down in the days I was trapped in that vast, deep and dark pit made of loneliness, lifeless and gloomy. A little voice whispered into my heart, and a pair of hands that were too dark to be seen held tightly onto mine. O' even in divine words I cannot explain the calmness that had been given to me by that voice, and the too warm feeling is beyond words to be told. It was you, you and only you are enough."

"I am strong to anything but you."

"Your proximity is too warm to be left behind."

"If you lack my love, I am too cruel."

"I feel that I am cruel when I do not love you."

"I would rather die, than hating you."

"In mathematics, me plus you makes two, but after subtracting our difference, it makes us one."

"In love with you -- the inadequacy is your person alone, the sufficiency is your heart and your soul."

New Stuffs

"In my life, everything is countable, other than my love for you."

"Whenever I do the happy things, the fun things, the sad things, the foolish things that I've done with you, they ultimately go back to three words, "I miss you". Look at what you've done after leaving me behind!"

"In everything I do for you, I only attach immeasurable love."

"Where do I have to go to, to be able to find you again? If there is no where I can go, I would rather stay lost amidst loneliness."

"Where in the hours have you been? I miss you as the seconds count by!"

"Do you know how easily you get lost in my mind? Cuz' you never seem to get out of it!"

" "You are the star shining in my heart" -- if I get lost in the dark, maybe your star will lead me back to you."

"Your face is there,
Every morning,
Every night,
Every evening,
Everyday."

""Every morning is a new beginning!" -- not for me, for your face appears in my mind every moment, even when I wake up."

"Why is it so hard to count the number of times I think of you!"

=]

"Whenever I do the happy things, the fun things, the sad things, the foolish things that I've done with you, they ultimately go back to three words, "I miss you". Look at what you've done after leaving me behind!"

"A prose like that is not worthy of my pen! A life like that is not worthy of my concerns!"

"I am not made for war, for bloodbath and for massacre."

"If I am not bloodthirsty, I wouldn't be helping you."

Updates

Here are some new stuffs I wrote, lazy to do something about this, I'll just copy and paste, I'll update when I'm free =p sorry for the long pause,
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"It doesn't matter if you're wrong, cuz I'll always forgive you."

"Why is it that when I am sad, I think of you, whenever I feel that I need somebody next to me, I think of you, whenever I am left broken in heart, I think of you, when I feel thankful to fate, I think of you, whenever I feel my happiness is shared, I... think of you, why is it that it is only you that I think of whenever I feel something?"

"Hold my hands for your brilliance is in me, and when you clutch tightly to me, you will feel your imperfections enjoyed and your faults forgiven. Shall the light of my forgiveness hit into the surface of your world and brighten your life."

"O' speaks the fist that grasps the surface of this earth, that which clings everything to it, give powers O' strength of this fist, as much powerful you are into the grasps of my hands, for this pair of hands will bind an inseparable bond with another that belongs to it."

"Powerless I am toward the things beyond my control -- I can only look at the stars, sorrowful is my heart, grieve over frowns that will paste my face with powerlessness."

"Says a longing heart that thirsts for care: "If you shall speak with the weary world, your will has been devoured by a hungry chasm hunting for preys." "

"Believe me, little one, believe me, you won't want to lose me."

"Dear, too isolated is the stillness in my heart."

"My life is but a vacant, a waste-dump area of unnecessary knowledge -- without my heart, it can do nothing, and is worth nothing. But you filled it with love, that I can do something for you."

"Listen to me, fool, you call yourself a fool when you think you deserve to be as low as what you call it! I call you a fool, because I believe you deserve to get up out of being insulted!"

"Maybe, maybe not. We make decisions. He loves me, he loves me not. We doubt our decisions. He hates me now, he doesn't love me. We are deceived by the illusion of our judgement, we hate our decision. He does love me, he will love me forever. We made the right decision!"

"Don't thank me for helping you, thank God that I am still here to help you."

"Frown, frown, frown, that little wrinkle, you will put on your forehead."

"Leak those drips till they go away from your heart, for a clogged drain will only trouble more, so will a clogged heart do the same."

"Infinity -- we cannot end, predict, measure. My love for you -- you cannot end, predict, measure."

"Seduce me, will~! Ignite me, strength~!"

"He, who is judgemental, finds provocation. He, who is belief, finds innocence. He, who is compassionate, finds righteousness."

"Out of the millions of madness,
The only thing left to love,
Is the kindness,
That you have left for me to move."

"Questioner: "What happened to you?"
Answerer: "Nothing that I can explain with words..."

"Young one, you, who seek, believe beyond the limits you can reach... Go ahead! Create a new world... I don't want to be selfish to condemn you from letting me see a wholly amazing new picture of the world!"

"If you are regretful of losing me, don't be."

"The world, as I can see, a beautiful view, that is you!"

"If I want to have a look at the beautiful view of the world, I will look at you."

"Needless are the calming green mountains, clasping tide of the deep blue seas, glittering dim of the early sunset, glowing dawn of the late sundown, for I have you, you and only you make me notice that the world is beautiful."

"The glimmering beauty of a sundown is sparkled by yours."

"The grieving heart looks upon into the nostalgic abyssal clouds."

死老巫婆 -- Apple

Jeez, I want a bite :< stupid stubborn girl enjoying herself T___T 喂，傻瓜！给我吃一点呀！！乛——乛 恨你 丫--丫
I feel like saying this to her, but oh well, guess she'll never see me saying this.
心里话：
Apple 呀!Apple!你这个死老巫婆！你知道我想念跟你谈话的时候吗？你现在忙了，我自己很孤单>_>麻烦的老巫婆，虽然每次都是很固执的面对我，一直骂我小弟弟，一直骂我笨蛋，可是我还是忍下去T_T,以前是很讨厌的，现在怎么觉得身边好像空了一些东西。。。因该是你骂我的讯息吧。。。你最近还好吗？是否过了一个好的生活呀？看你那么享受，我看我自己又很孤单，承受不了。。。T___T假如小弟弟，或许大笨蛋，或是大傻瓜，死了的话，你会记得我吗？你会为我伤心吗？我知道我比你小，什么都看起来像是做不到，可是如果是爱，现在就像是倒翻了的桃子，爱的形状，即使是倒翻了，我一定会去利用权利来把它翻回来!就看着来吧！就算我是小笨蛋，我也一定可以做得到的！老巫婆！你给我看着来！总有一天，我一定会试我的权利的！

A game that I made

Try solving? It's not complete, but can be tried! :D Good luck! Tip: roots

Well well...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UDLuK4xYmKc&feature=related
Watch...

I wish it wasn't so hard... One day, I am going to walk out a place like this with a behaviour like the picture above cuz I'm a man, someday, somehow, later on, as time passes on, I'll look back.

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"Even when we illustrate a foolish picture when we are told to describe ourselves with the brush, it sometimes means that we are creating our own mirror -- we are looking at ourselves reflectively at the big picture."
--
"I looked back into the sea of memories, I realized
that I was a thief of my own time, my own priority, and my own happiness."
--

Ciao!

Let's see...

Let's give a good peek into what's going on... :]
Work:
Holidays are on their way here!
Holidays - good seasons for students to return to their homeland and revise on who they really are.
"Who we are affects who we want to be and so with who we will be."
It's good to stop by and idle a moment for yourself trying to understand more about YOU, ask yourself this very question for very many times till you find something, "Who am I?"
As for me, I've been really steady on this and I'm going to take charge of the studies I have been always lazing around with recently... I'm going to take a break from school life and look at my life, ME AND ONLY ME! You people should, too, do so.
(exams are ending, holidays are coming, but homework [holiday package] is rising)
Chill!
Life:
I realized that in life, there are a lot of hesitance. These doubts can be managed, into undeniable truths.
One thing I know the earth as, is a divisible sphere, into two equal parts, that everything is equal :/
Many things in life so happen to be mutual, mutuality works steadily through us, humans rely on each other, they need friends, guys need girls, animals need other animals for food, and the rest are nearly the same.
"The world of oneness can only bring loneliness, extreme distinction, and suffering."
It happens too in mathematics that things are mutual, the constants and coefficients rely on each other.
Theory of mathematics : "Maths isn't tough, it's mutual, equal and balanced."
Given an equation,
"6 + x = 7"
I am very sure, the most of you are able to calculate that. But my point is, the "equal sign" or "=" brings the meaning of "equality", it wants both sides to reach the same meaning, to convey the same message, to exist in a coexistent way. It's about making both sides reach an agreement, which is equality. And the "unknown" or the "x" just is an empty blank. See? Isn't it just plain easy to understand?
The solution follows this "mutual rule",
"Mutual" -- By giving one, you must receive another in return, even if you do not want it, you must still receive it, for it is what you deserve from giving.
"6 + x = 7, by deducting 6 from both sides, you get 1 for x"
"Giving something always gets you another thing in return."
So, don't worry about it! Be happy!
--
Today in exam, I was worried if I should just quit the subject cuz it was too boring for me, but then I knew something when my mum told me "just be happy, the results aren't so important"

--
"All the while I have been doing this, it has been about a year or two that I have been put to this test. Collectively, it was never easy, and there were many unbearable tough times that made me express my sorrow with tears out of me. All those tears and fears I have always resisted, and more than many times had I broken down due to utter fear. However, I cannot run away from this challenge, I will not run away, for if I do, I will lose my confidence."
--

Thus, I began to perceive life as a lighter burden. Now, if I want or need to do something, I believe I will strive. I put this test of life into actions. I will manage well and strive to be as possible well.
Wish me good luck!

Afterword:

"We shall walk this life with a stronger shoulder and work with what we have unhurriedly to strive for success."
~©2009KangHo
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"Perhaps success is an utter contentment we get from completing something, even if we did not intend to begin with it."
~©2009KangHo
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"Chances of failing may be high, but failing does not mean we cannot be happy."
~©2009KangHo
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"Be countless and numberless, be everlasting, put those indefinite energy into your effort to achieve contentment."
~©2009KangHo

I realized...

Updates on my life;
Work:
Workload has been reducing recently, thank God for the moment(but it'll come back sooner or later, so I'll try my best :o) At least now I'm just thrown in a sea of exams, a tide of rushing currents of examinations! I am condemned to swim this but this isn't my real point for now :3
Life:

"The smile of an angel -- too much of innocence kills my anger toward her."
Don't you see the beauty in that? It's a perfect smile... idk why, I never saw her smile so... this was the first, or at least, that kind of innocent, pure, and real smile, I can just feel it. A genuine self-reflection is what we all desire to do at some point in life.
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Today, I realized something when I was texting someone, when I was texting, I checked through my messages(I hardly text anyway), I saved too many messages on the phone, and those were aged more than 3 or 4 months, I realized one thing,
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"When you hold too much of the past, you are not enough for the present, or even the day to come."
~©2009KangHo
Even for the smallest thing... just like this, I realized I wanted to store more of this person's message, than a person who passed out ignoring me now, I kept theirs but now, I have no space for the coming messages, and so I decided to delete the old ones, and start with new ones... Even when you know it, it's the end if our grasp is too tightly clung to the past.
Believe me, be happy that in the end, the next path will lead to a better conclusion.
Afterword:
Thanks for those who have supported me.
"In times, pain is a sore to people who touch their swelling point."
~©2009KangHo
22/5/2009
Insight: "Sometimes, it can only be hurtful if you touch what you believe is painful, without touching our belief, there is no pain at all."

I don't know

"If no one can change me, I will change myself!"
~©2009KangHo

"Love is a mutual exchange while holding hands in a harsh reality of countless obstacles flushing through to testify the strength of those holding hands."
~©2009KangHo

...I'm left broken, not by love, but by loneliness, we pay efforts by giving, but not necessarily respects in return, in fact, sometimes, it's more like "mortification" than acceptance...

Today! I will "change"!

AREA OF SEGMENT IN A CIRCLE

My maths formula above, made with "area of sector - area of triangle of sector" :]
Hello my people!
Bleh it's been very hard and very long for me, but the good news is.....

FINALLY
I CAN START SHOUTING THAT
AT THIS MOMENT
FREE FROM PRISON
I'm free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Work:
I just feel like exploding into many many bits or get onto the hundredth floor of a building and jump down and break my bones!!! THAT GREAT EASE OF A BURDEN!! SO UNTIED!!! I'm no longer chained by project works, I can start worrying more on life, less on silly assignments for now, for this year, that should be about it, two assignments totally used my months up! BLEH, let's talk about something happier shall we? :D

SILLY BITCHES! SUCK ON THAT! MY CREATIVE ARTWORK! =P so you see, for each day it was suffering, the more it mattered to the outcome, and yes! finally out of the spur of my talent... I've finally made it to the ending!!! I just wanna hug whoever now, squeeze'em so hard that they might be suffocated.


Let's talk about life shall we? :D
Life:
I've recently discovered more on those silly and ugly things in life, perhaps the world can be divided into two hemispheres.

Artistic and religious;
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Scientific and logical;

total contradiction :O
even if you do not believe in a religion doesn't mean it doesn't exist ;] I was inspired, I might write a story on that :o too bad I think I'm a copycat... and I don't have that kind of persistence.... bleh!

look at the picture above, beautiful lady isn't she? but this picture makes me laugh! I like her but she doesn't like me in return, too bad, I lack the confidence, it wouldn't be enough to hold :/ bleh, better luck next time :P,
She's a beautiful but annoying and hot-tempered "woman" if I may say! I like this shot, it makes me laugh, every time I look onto this, I would only think of laughing till my organs spill :P I even took a picture of myself that looks like this... "motivation"! I should caption that :O!
Someday I'll find it, my true love <3 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;font-family:courier new;font-size:180%;" >Words:
Artistic moment :o

This was a doubt within me, this thought has been wandering in my mind for a long time up to today to some people, some girls, I wished...
"When people told me that I was too young to be in love or to even try being in one, they, too, would tell me to abstain from it, and restrain myself within that "confinement" of studies."
After some time I wondered again, and I began to witness the reality myself,
"The reality of Love is not brutal, love is brutal to people who blindfold themselves in love, or they could deny everything because to them, love is "only pleasure" and "no pain"."
And I would begin to tell a girl;
"If I were to be told to refrain from all these things, said that I was too young for all these things, if I had not the courage to face you and was unprepared, I would excuse myself with all these. But, collectively, I've come to realized for myself that, the undeniable existence of our future was always there awaiting our embrace."
And again;
"If I were too afraid, I would begin to use "too young" to excuse myself, and now, I wouldn't do so just to hold you so tight, that when I hold you, you will be enlightened and never let go of me, too."
So,
"For we are 'too young', that is just a common excuse, we deserve a chance, we trust our partner, and, too, do we trust ourselves when being in love."
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Conclusively, "We earn respects by challenging failure to thrive better into the future."

Afterword:
To write myself out;
That's about it!
You, my friend viewing there,
Do wait and listen with care,
That my flesh can die,
Is what I cannot deny,
My body with yours isn't there as two,
But what I know,
If my love has more,
I'll come by your heart's door,

It's left only a day!
The more I do,
My body away,
My heart in you!

"When there are crops, there are pests. When there is life, there are problems."
We will have to just be brave for them =]

Wow

Exams, Exams, Exams D:< I wish this could end, anyway, I'll use pictures as my mouth for a thousand words now they'll do the wording, cya!


















~kang

Inspiring

The Bridge Builder

An old man, going a lone highway,
Came, at the evening, cold and gray,
To a chasm, vast, and deep, and wide,
Through which was flowing a sullen tide.

The old man crossed in the twilight dim;
The sullen stream had no fear for him;
But he turned, when safe on the other side,
And built a bridge to span the tide.

"Old man," said a fellow pilgrim, near,
"You are wasting strength with building here;
Your journey will end with the ending day;
You never again will pass this way;
You've crossed the chasm, deep and wide-
Why build you this bridge at the evening tide?"

The builder lifted his old gray head:
"Good friend, in the path I have come," he said,
"There followeth after me today,
A youth, whose feet must pass this way.

This chasm, that has been naught to me,
To that fair-haired youth may a pitfall be.
He, too, must cross in the twilight dim;
Good friend, I am building this bridge for him."

~Will Allen Dromgoole

It has learnt me that I should learn to impart learning from what our yesterday's mistakes are and how to improvise from them. It's said that the experienced people have more wisdom and knowledge of the ones who have not passed what they have, they, are, far surer of the pain than we are of it. The ideal, the norm is to learn from not only our own mistakes, but others, or to learn from our own mistakes and teach the rest on how not to do it again. I believe this hold can be strong, and if we take note of it, surely, life's lesson is a greater, more significant breakthrough.

"We are humans who are subjected to tests by God in the beginning of time, we were never escaped from them, we are condemned to do this, but all together for the right reasons. Keep fighting!"

~Kang

Below is something I wrote a few days ago, that is something about learning from my "regrets" so I have decided, if anything, it should be now and no other time else. Enjoy!

A Mistake I Learned To Mend

"My life has only once, and an only chance to deed well, of all the time in the world, I might not live till tomorrow to see my good deed be done or succeed, I have only today and only now, so if I may demand, I will do it straight, I will do it now."
~©2009KangHo [Present Deed]

My Past "Words of the day":

1 - Have you ever tried wobbling on a stage with a steady foundation?

2 - Obligated is one, to prove himself in front of the world, just to confront exaltation.

3 - It is not foolishness to define one's own destiny, but an exaltation, a build in attitude.

4 - Love is like drug, lacking it would make you crave for more, and overdosing makes you feel sick and indulgent.

5 - A smile can strengthen the weakened, so can it weaken the wicked.

6 - We smile - to know that life isn't only about pain, to understand that happiness calms, and to know that fate is smiling at us.

(I will try to post more, a bunch of them got deleted in my old computer, I hope to be re-inspired :/, let's hope I get to retrieve them at another computer)

-Kang

你们好... How are you?

过了这一阵子，
一片黑暗的时间，
你了解了多少我的字？
一直到今天，
你了解了吗？
我是否应该放弃心里的你呀？
我做错了吗？
我现在还在后悔呀！
啊，啊，啊，
生活的一路是真复杂！
你明白了吗？
我希望你了解我吧。。。
即使渴望着您的身影，
却只不过是一个不会来的背景，
我还需等多久到我命运的到来，
不如就现在？
心里不足够的你，
就是现在，把它补完吧，因为爱就在你心里！

Don't you understand that it is now that I need you?!

Is it my time?
Should I give up?
Is this my fate?
I fear that I might not understand myself anymore,
So, what about now?
Lord allowed me to be troubled and lonely,
And be able to cry whenever I need to,
What are those tears worth if there is no love...
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Ah well, life swims on streaming a lonely path,
If only life was easier,
The whole river splash would be like a bath,
Washing all the impurities and anger,
How small and round can this little world be!
Parting from happiness leaves a lonely me!

"What is the opposite of two? A lonely me and a lonely you!"